Days ago, I had this weird dream where I met my high school friend I haven't seen in years then he said the sweetest thing anyone has ever said to me. I've been thinking about how good my high school memories was ever since. I miss the old good days, I miss my old friends, and all experiences with them in it. I want to live in that time again. I feel like if I were given a chance to travel in time, I would use it to travel back to my high school days, where life was much easier for me, not to change the fate but to experienced it one more time.

And today, after having a quite deep conversation over the chat with a friend of mine, I'm convinced  that I have trouble with moving on. I can hardly move on from the past, either good or bad ones, and this is not good. At all. After the most recent "failure", I keep overthink about everything. What if I couldn't do better than my other friends? What if I couldn't get the job I want? and other lots of what ifs. I keep worrying about things I shouldn't be worried of and being scared about future.

The lesson I learned today is clinging to the past doesn't make you any better, it will only make you smaller as you keep thinking about how you should have been done, instead of doing it. I don't always have to be the best in everything. People make mistakes, and so do I. What I have to do now is taking lesson from the past and try not to repeat the same mistake in the future, throw all the worries away and put the negative thoughts out of my head. Start from now, I promise myself that I will try to be a better person each day and grow stronger so I can *survive* in this world.